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I'm actually in a fairly good mood today which is totally contrary to the annoyance I have with myself right now. I went to the doctor's today and got weighed and apparently, I weigh 140 something pounds. I didn't even properly check because I saw that 4 on the scale and I was devastated.

Then my mom started talking about how she was less than 110 pounds or something when she got married.

As if that made me feel better.

Both my parents were skinny when they were younger. And by skinny, I mean skinny skinny. Thin. Not just average. But they were both living back in Nigeria where you had to work to eat. By the time you finished harvesting in the field, you already lost all the calories that you were gonna eat.

They obviously both have low metabolisms so once they got here, they blew up. And that's what I inherited. I wish I could just stop eating.

So starting June, I'm gonna get back on track. I'm gonna eat better, I'm gonna workout. I really want to get into running. But if I was gonna run, I'd do it really early in the morning when it's still a little dark. Maybe I'd do it with my mom.

I'm gonna begin one of those month challenges things. This time, it'll be a 30-day drawing challenge. I probably should've started in May. Eh. Whatever. So get ready for that. I'm trying to do more substantial posts this year than last year. That means I need to write more than 207 posts before December 2012. I'm at 69 (or 70) and almost half of the year is already done. I'm gonna buckle down this summer and get at least up to 150.

So other than losing weight, writing, and drawing. I have a bunch of other plans for the summer.

I'm thinking about wearing my hair all natural the whole summer. I really hate how itchy and nasty my hair gets when I wear braids for like a month. And my hairline seems to be disintegrating so I really just want to have my hair out and free for a moment in my life. I don't want it all natural. I can't imagine carrying my nappy head everywhere. I might texturize it or get twists or something. It would make running in the summer easier too.

I'm also creating a Summer Book List. That will be out around the first week of June. I'm also gonna be SAT Prep-ing myself. I think I'm taking the SAT next school year. I don't know. I realized that I don't hear much about it from the juniors, as if I even hang out with any juniors. But I'm gonna be learning as much words as possible because that was a serious problem when I was taking the PSAT. I didn't know a lot of the words. I want get at least a 2000 on the SAT.

 I'll also probably be teaching myself Physics unless I can get a tutor or something. I kind of missed the opportunity to get summer classes at my school. I'm a mess, I'm telling you.

I'm also trying to do some volunteering at the community center. I realized that I don't actually mind helping children that much. As long as I don't have to work too closely with children.

And maybe I'll get a job. But that's not a possibility.

I'll begin to learn how to drive.

I'll start getting my school style and wardrobe together.

Okay, let me stop. My Summer To-Do List will be out after finals. Okay BYE.