Today was thought-provoking. I'm so glad it's over.
I finished my Chemistry mid-terms which I failed. I think I got a 78% on it and my teacher curved the grade so how about that. I skipped over at least 10 questions and I was the last to leave, once again. And then I just started guessing. It's really my fault for not studying properly.
And I lost a lot of things so that's annoying me. I can't find my graphing calculator, my Chemistry notebook, and this bracelet I bought from China. So GRR. I don't know what to do.
And I found out I got a 68% on my Calc mid-term. So that was wonderful to hear about. I now have an 83% in that class. So at least it matches my Physics grade. :D
If I don't study properly, my Physics grade will drop lower than that. I don't know what to do with myself.
I always talk about school, school, school. And then boys. I need something else to talk about. Ugh. The junior life.
This post will be no different, actually.
My friend did something so mean to me today. Maybe not mean, but... I don't even know. I didn't like it at all. So we sit at my "father's" table at lunch now and I guess me and him were joking around about something, I don't know what. And my friend saw us and then she started writing in my journal saying, "You looked so cute when he was joking around with you a minute ago." I was like, "WTH!" And she was just saying things like, we would be so cute together and I kept refuting it. Because I really could not imagine myself with him AT ALL. First of all, it would've been incest. Second, it would have been awkward because we're close friends. AND he also went out with my good friend. So no. Not a possibility. And I don't even want to be in a relationship.
I can't deny that I did think about it once. You know, going out with him, liking him. And I kind of did like him for a moment and now I don't anymore. At least not in that way. And what my friend said made me so flustered and I keep it thinking about it until now.
So I guess we can go on to her. She did used to have a crush on my "father". But she found a new boo to gush over. And he's basically like the equivalent of how oliver was to me. Maybe even more. He's definitely her ultimate crush and she's crazy over him. She sent him a candy gram as well. And she's planning on telling him that she sent it and that she likes him tomorrow and I want to be there for moral support. Actually, I would've totally done it for her and she said I totally could if she chickened out. So I'm excited about that. And I'd be SOOO excited if he ends up liking her back. Secondhand happiness, you know. I really hope he does though if he did, I'm not sure where they would go with it. They don't talk much at the moment except for knowing glances at each other in Japanese class since they both are clueless about what goes on in there. It's so cute when she describes it.
So it's currently 10:36 PM and I haven't even downed half a bottle of water. And all I've eaten today is junk. In the morning, I had a puff puff (search it up) with orange juice. For lunch, I ate a Rice Krispy and two small cookies. After school, I had salt-and-vinegar chips and two mint oreos. And later, I had two packets of those peanut butter crackers and one small Rice Krispy. Then not long ago, I had a bite of rice. I should probably go eat a nice plate of rice and vegetables so that I can say I had one proper meal today. But I noticed that I have least of an appetite in the night (I think it's because I just woke up or something).
I want to get this whole bottle down before 11:00 PM and start on the next one. These past few days, I've been drinking most of my water in the night and then the next day, I need to pee like every hour. It's crazy. I don't know if there's much improvement in my face though. I'm getting these painful pimples on the sides of my face but I'm pretty sure they're due to the face that I've had my hair in my face these past few days. And today, my face started flaking.
Oh and if you guys haven't figured it out yet, I live really close to Washington DC so I may be going to the inauguration with my mom tomorrow. I hate that's it on Monday, one day before school begins again but whatever. I get to go to the freakin' presidential inauguration. Obama will be there! And I have to dress all fancy, apparently. Which is by no means a problem. So I'm totally excited about that.
You know, I wish I had studied harder this week so I can feel more satisfied about ending the week tomorrow. I feel more relieved that it's over and annoyed with myself. I'm glad my grades didn't change much and my GPA is actually the same as it was last quarter. But it's critical that I keep it that way.
God, please give me the strength and concentration to do absolutely amazing next quarter.
Peace & boyfriends.
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