When Will I Ever Learn?

Okay, so I just drew a blank on exactly what I wanted to say but let's just see what happens.

Right now, I feel pissed off. I keep losing and forgetting my stuff. Like today, I forgot to bring home my AP book so I have no idea how I'm going to study for my Calculus test tomorrow. And I don't know where my glasses are. Plus, my calculator, my bracelet, and watch are no where to be found though they have been all been missing for awhile. It just irks me. And then my mom was annoying me today but I'm not gonna go into it because I'll probably just end up sounding like a b****.

Tomorrow is Anti-Valentine's Day and my table was supposed to wear black but my plans were slightly ruined because for SADD, I have to wear purple in order to give out ribbons and such. So I'm planning on sticking with the black and carrying a purple purse instead.

I bought some cookies but there isn't much in the box. So not many people will end up getting cookies. But whatever. It's Anti-Valentine's Day and I don't care. And I ate one which was probably bad but it tasted good so I don't care either.

I'm really just annoyed with a lot of things. And I was hoping to sleep it out and get myself together but I think I barely slept an hour when my mom came and woke me up. So I'm still grumpy and there's no food in the house to cheer me up.

I haven't been praying to God either. Maybe that's why my day was shit.

At the mall, there was this girl working at the cash register who happened to be in my grade though I didn't know until she told me. She was scanning our food and then my mom was like, why don't I go and bag them? And I muttered something evil like, "Because there are people paid to do this." I don't know if I said it that loud or not but I'm hoping she didn't hear me because the girl ended up being really nice. Honestly, I thought she was one of those ghetto girls but when she talked to me, I found out she was the same grade as I was and went to another high school in the area. And she was talking about how it wasn't a good school and how she wished she was in private school. And she told me she was studying for the SAT and she got an 1800 on the practice one. And so yeah, I was really wrong about her. And I wish I could take back all my thoughts.

But in my defense, black (ghetto) people were just irking me to no end today. Like today, a group of girls stopped everyone in the hallway to take pictures. I had less than two minutes left to get to Calculus tutoring and I was ready to break their phones and get the heck out of there. Like wth? Do that shit outside.

I'm being pretty vulgar today, but again, I don't care.

A guy tried to open a door for me today. And it was funny because the door he tried to open wouldn't work.  So I ended up opening another door for myself but said thank you anyway. I thought it was a sweet thing for him to do. Guys don't do that stuff these days, you know.

Tomorrow, I'm going straight home. I think I deserve it. I went to all Calculus sessions this week and I'm pretty sure after I fail my Calc test, I'm gonna need a good rest from everything. That also means, since I haven't been on the bus for the entire week, my bus driver is going to pass my bus stop again. -_-

So yeah. I really need to get to bed earlier today so I can wake up and do my make-ups and what not. I just have to study for Calculus, finish some English work, and do Calculus problems which is actually a lot of stuff to get done. I'm also supposed to study for SAT Math but that's probably not going to happen. However, I' think I'm going to start studying SAT words in the morning on the bus from now on because that's the only time I have now.

I really wanted to try out for Tennis this year but I think I have absolutely no time for it. I should've just done it last year so I can take a break this year. But I have no time to work out and get my game on, and if I do perhaps get in, I'll have to forfeit going to the Calc sessions which is detrimental to my grades. I've made so many mistakes in my life, it's not even funny.

I just pray for a better day tomorrow because right now, I feel ridiculous.

Peace & Forgotten Things.