It's Getting Old.

I want to write but I have no idea what to say and how to start this out. Honestly, nothing really exciting happened. But I feel the need to let things out.

Um... so the AP Calculus BC Test was yesterday. It's funny because the night (or technically, hours before because I didn't go to bed until like 3:00 AM), I actually felt like I could clutch the test with at least a 3 and maybe... maybe even a 4.

I was doing the free-response for tests of the last two years and I was just getting them all like flies on a frying pan. I was elated. And the free-response was basically the same for like 3 or 4 years. But sadly, I neglected to study for the multiple-choice part. I merely looked over some problems that I failed on the multiple choice quizzes my teacher had given back. And that was my studying for the night.

I came to school... kind of confident.

Well. The test didn't go TOO bad. Though I totally butchered the first part of the multiple choice. I was missing like ten problems. I had marked the edges too and I had to quickly bubble non-sense in before moving to the next section. (Then I stealthily went back and erased all my marks before turning the test in)

I clutched the second part. I even had like 5 minutes left to spare. And the free-response was okay. I got some, I didn't get some. I completed almost everything, I think. Of course, they had a few of the same problems I had studied the night before. Those ones I totally crushed.

I have one more big AP test to go and that one is for Physics. I'm gonna study hard for that this weekend. My teacher pissed me off today though it wasn't her fault. It was my fault. And I got a 0 for homework... Homework that I worked on until 3 AM. But whatever. I won't talk about it more.

I also have an "AP test" for Computer Graphics tomorrow. This week I was so busy trying to finish matting my quality works and today, I missed an entire class to quickly finish the breadth section of my portfolio. My "crush" was in the 4th period class that my Computer Graphics class was teaching though I didn't get to really see him because of where I was sitting. I say he's my "crush" because I'm really not falling hard for him. I think he's real cute but that's it. I still need a name for him. I think I'll call him The Skater Kid.

My friend sices the crush up so much. It's fun to have a boy toy so that's why I entertain it. But honestly, my "crush" on him is nothing like the one I had before. That crush is dying down little by little. Though I say that all the time. It fluctuates, really. Watch. He's gonna glance at me one of these days and I'll be totally head over heels for him again.

In better news, I got a 96% on my Chemistry finals so I'm elated. My friend that of all the friends she's talked to, I had the highest. That made me happy. At least I'm not entirely stupid. My grade at the moment in the class is a 93. And since we're basically done with everything, I have nothing else to worry about. My grade in Physics is an 88% though I have NO IDEA WHY. I think my teacher did some black magic to my grade or something. I have two Cs for quizzes and an 85 for a test. It blows my mind how I have an 88! It's gonna go down after she puts in that homework grade.

In Calculus, I have a 79. I'm afraid that after our last test, all hope for a B will be gone. And I have no hope in myself that I will get a good grade on the next test though I really wish I did. (We haven't even learned the lesson yet and I'm saying this. -_-) But my Calculus teacher has been talking about doing some mega curves and stuff so most likely, I'll be clutching a B.

My Computer Graphics grade is upsetting. I have a B in that class at the moment because I missed the deadlines for two homework assignments. And I got two Bs on some concentrations and it's making me sad because I don't ever get anything lower than an A in that class. And I went to the lab sessions for extra credit and I'm hoping that it'll be enough but I don't know yet.

Today, I went to this... I don't know what you would call it... A Christian seminar event? I have some mixed feelings about it though mostly good. I feel bad having negative feelings about it. But I kind of do.

First of all, they started pretty late. They were supposed to start at 5:30 but I don't think they got up and running until 6:30. And they started with a group of guys rapping about Jesus. And I was all for the music. But we were required to stand up and I felt awkward. A few people were swaying with the beat but I was just standing and watching. They did another one of those, but with an actual band playing and they were singing songs of worship and praise. I actually swayed a bit. A bit awkwardly as well. But the songs went on FOREVER. I felt obligated to stand too so I was standing for a good 15 minutes while they blended about 5 songs together. It seemed like it would never end.

It got better afterwards with testimonies and poems and a sermon. Then at the end, they did this prayer thing. And I decided to come up to the front. But things got awkward from there. I was hoping they would just pray for us and with us and that would be the end. But no, the guy was doing some kind of talking in tongues combined with prayer thing. And it was turning me off, kinda.

I really wanted to receive that blessing. I really wanted the Holy Spirit but I just couldn't focus. I was so distracted. I mean, I did receive a blessing that night. And I learned something. I definitely learned something.  I just... I don't know. I won't go on any longer.

So now I'm tired. I have a rough draft to right and some physics homework. Not a lot of homework actually. But it's 11:00 PM and I need to get it done.

So BYE.