I failed my Physics quiz and I skipped Spanish class (so I will receive hell on Monday). I skipped and went to the auditorium where the Latin classes were putting on their version of Julius Caesar. It was actually a convergence of two versions of Julius Caesar: Family Guy (which was in English) and Batman (which was in Latin). I preferred the Family Guy one only because my ex ultimate crush was in it and oh my gosh...
I was heating up in that auditorium room. He looked so hot in his blue blazer and red tie. And my friend wouldn't leave me alone as I was trying to enjoy. My other friend said that her own friend had a crush on him. She said everyone has a crush on him. And that annoyed me. My obsession needs to stop.
I've actually found a new guy to crush on. I've been looking at him for awhile but I haven't imprinted on him or anything but I think I shall because from what I can see, he's adorable. He's white (kind of a bit too pale actually) with wavy brown hair. He wears nice clothes. Like from H&M or something. It's trendy but not too trendy. Not like Tumblr trendy. It's more like American Eagle trendy. And he's probably in Science and Tech. He seems like a sweetheart. I really don't know much about him at all though. I know he's a senior and he's in honors classes, maybe even Science and Tech. He's in my lunch and I like glancing at him in the lunch lines though sometimes I forget. But now he's gonna be by new obsession because I can't handle crushing badly on a guy who's taken.
I got a 21/24 on my Calculus quiz so that made my day. I actually got that quiz back on Thursday or so.
Next week, I think, is Spirit Week. I was planning on going to Calculus tutoring all next week but that probably won't happen because I'm going to PowderPuff on Tuesday so yeah.
I just realized that I have been totally uninformed about any banner making for my class and stuff like that. Well, I wonder how that worked out. I usually help out with that stuff.
I did some Tennis today too. I haven't played Tennis in forever and I destroyed my thighs from lack of exercise and stretching. Then when I got home, I devoured frostees, pancakes, fufu, and pasta. :D
Tomorrow, I'll do better. But I need to be determined now because I really need to raise my self-esteem. I keep thinking of my ex-ultimate crush and how perfect he looks with his girlfriend and I'm like, even if he did like me, we would be such a gross looking couple. His girlfriend is some type of Middle-Eastern with long wavy hair. She's skinny. She's smart. She can drive. She dances. She's so perfect. And then there's me. My hair is rough. I'm pudgy. I have acne. I'm not THAT smart. I don't do anything. I sicken myself.
I've already done this a bunch of times. But I guess I'm just gonna have to try again.
So here's what I need to be physically perfect:
- Lose at least 20 pounds. (Go running at least three times a week and play Tennis on weekends)
- Get my skin in control. Drink a bunch of water. Perhaps go natural (stop all this acne medicine stuff).
- Deal with acne scars. (Do those natural stuff like lemon and tomatoes or whatever.)
- Get better at make-up. (Buy better mascara and eyeliner. Learn how to apply liquid eyeliner and eyeshadow)
- Wax my eyebrows. (That probably won't happen until next year so I need some other way to fix my eyebrows)
- Wear better clothes. (Get a job this summer and take a metro to the nearest mall and shop)
- Get my hair done. (Until I grow a big beautiful mane of natural hair, I want nice shoulder-length hair. I'm thinking about doing a weave but I may just stick to braids. I don't know yet.)
I should be good by next August, right? Actually, I want to get myself together before summer starts. I'm not sure if I have a deadline. I guess I just want to make progress. Reach goals and what not.
I've done it before I'll do it again. Here are the short-term goals now:
- Eat no junk for one whole week.
- Drink at least two bottles of water everyday for a week.
- Exercise at least three times a week. (Whether it's running or playing Tennis or playing basketball with the brothers or Tae-Bo)
- Do a natural mask once a week for four weeks
Every starts tomorrow. I'm gonna see if I can find some weight loss apps and stuff like that. I really need to get myself together.
Stuff is happening to my house. Some guys came to switch our fridges and now I think water is splashing everywhere. I don't know. I don't wanna get out of my room right now.
Let Go by Frou Frou is a lovely song. I'm so late on getting hip to it. But it so nice.
I should be getting homework done but I can't fathom doing homework right now.
There's a Forbes magazine opened on my bed. I'm still mystified as to who could've subscribed me to those. I'm hoping my dad isn't the one that has to pay for it because he doesn't know either. I think God sent them to me as motivation to do better in school. It doesn't help that I skipped Spanish, does it?
My mom is asking for the laptop. I wish they would all leave me alone. I'm having bad acne which is probably due to the fact that I've been using Victoria Secret lotion to lotionate my face.
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