By the way, the last post I made while I was in class. I'm a rebel huh.
But I have come back with an ULTIMATE TREAT FOR YOU! A NEW OBSESSION!
With a dude named Ezra Miller.
It's only been like what, 5 days? And I am beyond mesmerized by this guy. He haunts my thoughts. He's amazing.
I guess I should start by how I discovered this guy. The story is a shameful story to tell actually. But I guess I'll give you a general idea. So I was on Tumblr on Friday night. Or Saturday night. No it has to be Friday night because I couldn't concentrate at church. And I was looking through these pictures. And a video came up and I was like, "Yeah, I should totally watch this."
The video starts with two guys dancing at some sort of gay club. One of them looks uncomfortable and he's a bit younger. The other guy is all up on him and stuff. And then they kiss. It was pretty hot actually. Then the older guy leads the younger one to the bathroom and tells him to take this drug he had in his pocket. The younger guy refuses so the older one puts the pill in his mouth and shoves it down the younger one's throat with his tongue (if you know what I mean). And the younger one rushes to somehow spit it out and the older one pushes him against the wall and starts making out with him and then the camera goes out of view. Who knows? He probably got raped. I don't know.
I thought the younger guy looked very nice so I decided to search him up on Google. From the pictures I saw, his hair was to his shoulders and he had sprouts of facial hair. He looked disheveled and he looked okay but not superb. In my mind, I was like "Yes! At least he isn't too cute." I was so, so wrong.
I don't know what led to what. But I ended up watching a lot of videos with him. I'll insert one here:
Yeah, he looks very cute in this video right?
After this video, I watched an interview of his. The first interview I ever watched of him. And I thought he was a total douche actually. He's very articulate. He's no doubt smart. But I don't know. He seemed like one of those people who were full of themselves because he had all this knowledge. It wasn't the words he talked. I like long articulate words. They are like poetry to me. I didn't mind that all. It was just how he said some certain things. Pretentious... I guess. That was a reoccurring word that some people used to describe his personality. So I guess I'll go with that.
Not all his interviews are like that though. In a lot of them, he's just really sweet and funny. But he does use a lot of advanced diction and likes to explain things to their further meaning. Which I don't have a problem with. I love it. And I kind of love that he's pretentious. If he didn't have some imperfection about him, I don't know what I would have done with myself. Drop out of school and stalk him maybe?
I haven't said it straight up yet but yes, he's an actor. Kind of obvious right? He has played a lot of interesting characters in his acting career. One that stands out to me is the movie We Need To Talk About Kevin. The movie is mesmerizing. Oh my gosh. I want to see the movie SO bad even though I've practically watched all of it on YouTube anyways. But on the weekend, my brother and sister and I are gonna watch it all together. I don't know how that will work out because my laptop doesn't work and I have to be cautious with my dad's club computer.
ANYWHO! The movie is freakin' amazing. Ezra Miller plays a teen sociopath who, from birth, has had this resentment towards his mother. I don't know, from what I see, this kid is just straight up evil. The mother seems to not have done anything wrong. She was there for him, from what I see. But apparently, she didn't show enough affection towards him when he was a baby or something. And that's why the kid turned into a sociopath murder. Yeah... I don't think so. But Kevin is crazy. That's all I have to say. And here's the thing. Kevin is so creepy and handsome that it freaks you out even more. Ezra has this sexy death glare that he has on his face while portraying this character. He was perfect in this movie. That's all I have to say.
Okay, I actually have more. So towards the end of the movie, Kevin takes his bow and arrows, goes to school, locks the gymnasium and starts shooting at students and teachers. And some of them die and stuff. And in my mind I'm thinking, like, if Kevin was a rapist or something... I'd totally let him rape me.
I can't stop watching clips of it on YouTube. I want to just download all his movies and skip all the parts until I get to his face. Well, that's what I wanted to do at first. But after seeing trailers for some of the movies, I kind of find that they actually aren't that bad and I might actually want to watch the whole movie or something.
People say he reminds them of Richard Ramirez. I agree completely. I was thinking the same thing. Especially after seeing clips of this Kevin movie. Richard Ramirez was that mass murder guy, remember? Search him up.
I find it funny how Ezra just fits the trend of guys that I typically have major crushes on:
- Smart
- Dark
- Musician
- Free-spirited
- Quirky
- Smokers
Yeah, apparently he got caught for marijuana possession. And I saw an interview where he was no doubt high on something. The commentors on some of his other videos have said that either he was really smart or really high. There's a possibility that it could be the latter. I don't like the smoking deal but I don't know. I want to say he's hot so it doesn't matter. But that's not a very good excuse.
Actually, I have come to the conclusion that most of the people in the entertainment industry have taken or currently take some type of drugs. I totally believe that. First of all, most of them have the money and the connections to get the weed. And second, I've just seen so many people's drug abuse being exposed that I wouldn't even be surprised if Justin Bieber got caught with some marijuana in his tour bus or something.
I seriously believe that.
And on to the comparisons. Ezra Miller is a musician. He plays a drummer in this band called The Sons of An Illustrious Father. I think that's pretty hot. Remember when I said I had a thing for drummers? I swear, this guy fits all my descriptions of the perfect guy. It was inevitable that I found this guy. I mean, the only thing would be his pretentiousness but whatever.
Another trend that I found with this guy is that in most of the movies that he's been in, he's played some weird creepy dude. I can name them all to you. In the movies where he's not some weirdo, he's gay. I'm serious. Let me name you some movies actually.
Afterschool = Sophomore with an obsession for disturbing videos/pictures
City Island = Member of an odd New York family; Is always cracking crude jokes.
Beware The Gonzo = Journalist who creates a newspaper that exposes school reality and chiz; He's pretty crazy and power hungry in that movie.
Everyday = Gay
Another Happy Day = Drug addict who's been in and out of rehab
We Need To Talk About Kevin = teen sociopath murderer
The Perks of Being A Wallflower = Gay :)
Ha ha.
Another thing I find is that he's pretty young. To me even too young to be playing some of the roles he does. Like in Afterschool, he was practically my age. In Everyday, he was kissing some guy who was like 10 years older than him when he was only 15. But the thing is, he seems very mature and it actually doesn't seem as disturbing when you don't think about it. It's whatever though.
He isn't as obscure as I'd like but obscure enough... I guess. Obscure enough that if I asked the random Joe (or Jane) if they knew who Ezra Miller is, they probably wouldn't know. But not obscure enough that he has a fan base on Tumblr and an official website where girls like me obsess over him. I shouldn't be complaining. I love it. Infinite amounts of photos and information at my fingertips.
There's a lot of things I can say about this dude. I'm just gonna spam with his pictures now.
Seriously, I just want to find my own Ezra Miller one day. That would be so nice.
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