A Bit Boy Crazy Again...

This weekend has been pretty hectic. 

On Saturday, my family and I went to this picnic at the park. I thought it was lame at first because when we went, they hadn't even started cooking the food and 90% of the kids were 10 and younger. Blech. 

But then, one of our old friends came. We terrorized children. And we just had a bunch of a fun. 

I also got to talk a bit to this guy I've talked about about two years ago. He goes to boarding school so I only see him at events in the summer. Last year, I barely went anywhere so I never saw him. But this year, I've been seeing him more frequently because I've been actually up to going to picnics and parties and stuff with the parents. And I didn't realize until Saturday how much he had grown. He was all muscly, dark, tall, and handsome. 

Of course, I glimpsed at him too many times to count. Hoping he would talk to me once again. But it didn't happen. 

And then, I keep thinking about the tour guide from Georgetown. I don't think about him frequently but he pops up in my mind from time to time. And okay, he wasn't even drop dead gorgeous. He was simply cute and maybe not even THAT cute. Maybe. But he was just too sweet and he oozed intelligence and nerdiness. So yeah, I keep imagining me being in college and him being with me on my dorm bed. Not actually doing anything! But it still gives me the tinglies. And he's only two years older than me so it's not even gross or anything. 

Another dude that I sometimes think about is Austin Mahone. Okay, so I straight-up dislike the guy. He seems like too much of a try-hard, like Justin Bieber except less cringe-y and a lot less a total mess. I LOATHE when he wears hats, more specifically those backward "snack-backs" or whatever they call them. 

Ew.

*sigh* They didn't even try to make Austin Mahone original.

But I think I really like 'What About Love' and he has such a beautiful smile. 

Perfect.

And we were both born in the same year, making us basically match-made-in-heaven couple material. LOL. Until I found this picture of Austin Mahone-y, I didn't realize how actually and absolutely gorgeous he is.

I can't. Please stop.

Another boy that I've been thinking about... Oh, the shame... I wish, I TOTALLY WISH I could say I was over him. But the absolute truth is that I'm not. I thought the summer would help but it didn't. Not at all. And the guy I'm talking about is...

The Guy. 

I won't talk about him but I'm just letting it out there. I still think about him... Ways to make him jealous... Him possibly being in my class next year... Maybe having an internship at the same place...

It's actually very sad. Sometimes I worry that I'll never get over him. That I'll go off to college, probably never see him again in my life. But still have him in the back of my mind and that's actually really sad if that happens. I mean, I still remember crushes from a long time ago but I don't actually care about them anymore. I don't think about them everyday. I don't get the urge to search them on Twitter and figure out what they're doing. 

-_- This is a disease.